So hard to concentrate… final task… oh.. final task….

Oh man, it’s so hard to concentrate to do something these days….

I have to overcome the lazyness and start studying for the sake of my final task.. The clock is ticking fast and I’m going nowhere…
But, well, so many distractions lately.. blasted stuffs to do, stupid promises I have to fulfill, many fun things to do with my mates in this final year, damn… They’re just enough to break my concentration….

Oh well, I guess I’ll have to boost my spirit now..

Anybody knows how to concentrate, please tell me.. I’m close to dying now.. deadlines are coming….

Space Vector Modulation for Pulse Width Modulation (PWM) technique…

Guess it’s harder than I thought before

Happy chinese new year

Happy chinese new year for those who celebrate!

may the prosperousness be with you..

Gong Xi Fat Chai….

Good luck to you and your fam

God bless you in this RAT year

hope this country will get rid of the rats too

hahaha!

wept for a tyrant’s death???

the tyrant has gone, and surprisingly, everybody salutes him like a GOD! he gets a national-hero-funeral!! everybody wept for him.. everybody wanted him forgiven….

all i can say is:

WEPT FOR A TYRANT’S DEATH??? STUPID!!!!!

yeah, that’s what i mean

seems like everybody forgot how many mistakes he made and how he made us so stupid.. the “instant” culture, the habit of buying instead of making, etc.

seems like everybody forgot how many people he kill — he is a goddamn mass murderer for god’s sake!! (of course everybody in java adores him, he never kills javanese people… ask the outlanders and you’ll know how much they hate him…)

seems like everybody forgot how he made people outside java hates us javanese that much because of the stupid “javanization”… for example, ask papua people about freeport, and maybe you’ll understand…. how the rich island becomes poor but javanese people laughs in their fullness….

seems like everybody forgot how he made us this poor, by his stupid buildings using foreign loans….

i don’t know, maybe because we are so poorly stupid… so that Suharto may become the only tyrant in the world who doesn’t get punished or trialed after his regime falls……..

and because we are so stupid, so that we say “just forgive him, he has done much for this country too”.. what a crap!! his sins are just too many to just forgive him like that!!! i think his good is too little compared to his sins….

STUPID……

damn.. there are times when i wish i was not indonesian…

times like these…….

About the Ex-President (again)…

This is about our dying Ex-President (Soeharto) again…

This latter days when he’s sick, i saw many actresses, actors (although they’re most likely celebrities, they can’t barely act..) in infotainments who asks for forgiveness from people for Soeharto.

They said that the past is the past; We are a forgiving country, please forgive him; He’s nearly dying, so we should forgive him; He’s done many good things too to Indonesia; etc. It’s become a trend in the celebrity world to ask for forgiveness from him nowadays.

Whew.. Guess they know nothing but dressing, fashion, act like smart people and talk stupidly on the infotainment.

Have you known that everything that looks good back then was just a camouflage???

The building in our country back then, when big buildings are built, and many Indonesian praised Soeharto for building the country so he got the title “Bapak Pembangunan”… it’s money comes from rents from many countries, for god’s sake!

Fuel price was slightly cheaper than aqua in his regime?? It’s money comes from rents from many countries, for god’s sake!

The building of Jakarta, it’s money comes from other islands in Indonesia which riches were sucked for Jakarta.. Have the celebrities been thinking about the feelings of people outside Java? Will they forgive what Soeharto did to their islands back then? Many people wants to get separated from Indonesia because of that. Of the exploitation. For them, Soeharto have no difference with the Nederlands or Japanese who colonized us back then… He sucked hard and give nothing!

And he has many2 sins made from those buildings which many Indonesians still praise till now… Including the maybe-biggest-corruption in the world…..

Celebrities! Think before you talk!! You fool many Indonesians!!!!

Soeharto is the only mass murderer in the world whose life’s still fine after his regime falls! Other murderers like Pol Pot, Marcos, etc. had tasted the fairness of JUSTICE upon them. Soeharto? Haven’t. And probably never will. Cause this country is so stupid and it’s people easily distracted by stupid things like those infotainment………

Lone Hiking to Tangkuban Parahu

last night i went on a hike to tangkuban parahu alone

dunno what’s getting into my head, don’t have any exams waiting till 15 January, so suddenly i want to hike. and i want to be alone…

so there I am, at 8.00 PM, i went on various minibuses to Lembang. I reached Lembang on 9.15 PM. Then I began to walk.

I entered from Jayagiri. I’ve never went on this track before. they said that Jayagiri is spooky ^^ because the path is surrounded by dense and thick forests…but I decided to move forward. i remembered that if you really wish to reach something, the whole universe will help you to reach it, including the spirits, cause the spirits are parts of the universe too ^^
I’m rather afraid because they said that Jayagiri has many road branches. they tends to make people lost, furthermore, it’s so dark in the night and we cannot see what road leads to where… but, as i said, i remembered that if you really wish to reach something, the whole universe will help you to reach it, so i went on and on…

After a short walk in the still-lived-by-people-road, i began entering the forests. and after 30 minutes i felt the spooky feelings. i killed that feelings by thinking that there are no evil spirits out there, there are only good spirirts out there, the evil spirits just resides in our own hearts only. hehe. sounds childish, but it helps ^^

after a two-hour walk, here comes the first branch. and i became confused. so i called a friend who knows the way, and he yells frantically when he knew that i was walking alone in the night forest. hehe. it’s pleasing to hear people yells because of our stupid things, wasn’t it? ^^

so i followed his lead, but after a while i felt that i was lost again. and he couldn’t help me. no signal. but suddenly i saw flashlights, and i knew that i might met somebody here.

I was correct, there are local people making campfire. so i asked directions, and they gave me some. i followed the lead, with many confusions, and voila! i found the car road leading up! so i went on this track. hmmm, sulphur smells seems to be smelled everywhere, so i was near. hehe.

After a total of 3.5 hours walk, i arrived at the bus park of tangkuban parahu. wow, the busy-at-day port was very quiet at the moment.. (of course, the watch told me that it was 00.30 AM in the morning^^) but something terrible happened to me at the moment. there are many dogs there. seeing strangers, they barked and went running to reach me. but i shot the flashlight to them and they kept the distance from me. i moved forward cautiously and after 5 minutes, i was able to run from my pursuers ^^

after a 30 or 45 minutes of walk, i reached the sightseeing place atop the mountain where people stopped to looked at the craters below. the place where many shops stands. but then it was so quiet. i met a man at watch there, he told me the way to reach the very top of the mountain.

So began the last part of the journey. it was a 30 or 45 minutes rock walking and climbing. then i reached the top! it took me a total time of about 5 hours to reach the top from Jayagiri with many confusions. but it was a still-bad record…

wow! there is a building at the top. that time i thought that i could have some shelter if it becomes too cold, but my ego told me that i won’t ask for a help if it wasn’t urgent. so i decided to sleep at the worn-out shack there. that shack don’t have any walls. what’s left was just the foundation. i didn’t bring any tent, any sleeping bag, and any matterace because i thought that it won’t be necessary. but it looked like i was wrong, cause it was very cold, and the wind breezes like damn refrigerator wind…

at first, after i put my belongings under my body to make the surface warmer, i could sleep for 1.5 hours.

but on 04.00 AM in the morning, the convenience was interrupted by sudden killing cold weather and winds. so i got up freezing, i didn’t know what to do, so i decided to slam at the doors of the building to get some shelter. but nobody came out of the building! sh*t! i nearly passed because of the bloody cold, but my logic told me that if you really wish to reach something, the whole universe will help you to reach it.

so my mind told me to move in order to not to get cold. but what should i move for? what should i do?

then i remembered that i brought some blocks of parafin with m. using them and many wet lumber from the surrounding forest, i made a stupid campfire with afwul smell of the parafin. i stayed like that till it is not cold anymore. and after the cold, the sun started to shine!

it was damn beautiful!! ah,,, the sight atop a mountain at the dawn of the sunshine is always good. great sight to enjoy. you should try sometime. it is always worth the struggle to reach the top!

i enjoyed the moment till the sun reach higher skies.

After i was satisfied, i got back down to the sightseeing location, taking a minibus from there, and go home.

a little bit about bloody love…

“I love you…”

I love you too…
Long I’ve been waiting for you here…
Since I was a child, I’d been hoping that this desert will give me a beautiful gift…
Now my gift has come, and you’re the one…

I love you
That’s why I want you to go for your dreams once more…
If you have to wait for a moment, just wait…
If you feel that you have to go now, just go…
But you have to go…
This hills will change in time, shaped by the wind,,, but this desert never change…
Just as our love never change…

Love never prevents people from running for his fate…
If he left his dreams because of love,
It’s because his love is not a true love…

If I am a part of your dreams,
Someday you’ll come back…

“I’ll be back, like your father coming back for your mother…”

I’ll be waiting…
I love you…

The Ex-President’s gonna die… and everybody’s drown in tears

Our beloved ex-president, Soeharto the Great, is having a serious illness now. You can open www.detik.com, it’s everywhere on there.. Everybody speaks about that now.

Yes, it is Soeharto, the “Bapak Pembangunan”, the thirty-two-years-and-more-in-power, the untouchables, and the only tyrant in the modern world who haven’t got punished after his regime falls and probably will never get punished. He’s unbelievably magnificent in making these stupid poeple afraid of him.

What I want to say is, everybody’s pouring tears now!! what a big big big common surprise!! Even though he has killed his own people more than you can imagine, alhough he has stole his own country’s money more than you can imagine, although all that big mistakes, people seems to forget all that, and just let it go away, people don’t care about that, and still love him just because he has served as a 32-year stupid presidency….

Everybody, everybody including the present President and the Vice President who speaks about “JUSTICE and LAW ENFORCEMENT, JUSTICE FOR ALL PEOPLE” everyday on television… But the biggest criminal is living in peace and getting tears when he’s in a near death condition like now, and most likely will have a rest in peace too… Like a hero….

Yeah,,, a hero on pooring the poor………
All that people care was that title of president he once carry for that bloody 32 years only… Even though I don’t know what that’s worth.. But still, this is still a feudalistic country… People will praise you if you have “kingship”, even if you do something bad…..

Such a forgiving (or stupid) nation……. I’m PROUD of being INDONESIAN!!! hahahahaha!!!!!!!

A little sidewalk to KaliKuning

whew! i’m just back from my little walking trip to Kalikuning to exercise ^^. It’s tiring (3.5 hours hike) but the pleasures are great. Although the pleasure from hiking a mountain is greater.

So This morning I wake up at 6. After a little preparations, I went on foot to halt the Number 15 bus. I took that bus to Mirota Kampus and from there I took the Jogja-Kaliurang minibus. I got off in Pakem. And from there I walk about 3.5 hours on foot to reach the KaliKuning. Alone. It was tiring but thank God it didn’t rain. So the walk was an easy one. I just got lost many times and I round the place because I got lost though. Had to ask a lot of people to know the right path. hehe.

Then i reached the place. It was beautiful. With forests, still-clear-water, and cold breeze, it was perfect!! I lay on a stone for a moment, and i made a cup of tea and milk. it was great there. and i played water a little. And after short while, i got back because i have to race the minibus to go down. Don’t wanna walk down. hehe.

But unluckily, the minibus has gone all. I missed about half an hour. So i have to walk. and to make matters worse, after walking about 30 minutes or so, it started to rain. OMFG, i thought that i would be wet. But no! A minitruck empty of load asked me to jumped in. So i was dragged by that minitruck and i uses my jacket to protect me from rain.

Yeah! the rain stopped. But after awhile, the truck didn’t go to the same direction with me. So i jumped down and thankfully they didn’t want any payment. They insisted that. So, that’s my lucky day then! Hehe.

They dropped my where a bus would stop. So after a little walk, i saw a bus coming and i jumped in. After that, i rode the bus to Pakem. In Pakem, i have to walk a bit far to get a bus, but that doesn’t matter. After I rode a minibus from Pakem to Mirota Kampus, I took the Number 15 bus again. And here I am! Back, healty and loud!

insensitive….

whew… i’ve just realized that i’m being insensitive now….

I mean, when I first entered this campus, when an exam goes bad, i’ll cry like a baby in the night after.

I felt hopeless in every bad exam, and I would felt that way for 3 days or so before I go happy again.

But not now. In these 3 days, I have two “dunno ’bout a thing” exam. I mean, I couldn’t did them good. And I must be having bad marks… But I felt like nothing had happened. I felt like “aaah.. it’s just common”. I’m being insensitive…

Whew,, dunno why this happen… maybe we will go more and more insensitive when we grow old. Maybe we will care less about anything when we grow old. Or maybe our care is just different? I dunno….

But I don’t want to be more and more care less about anything… I want to put my thoughts over anything that happens in this chaotic world

Could I? ^^

It’s funny how people think about the others…….

Whew,,, don’t know anymore what’re they thinking…… It’s kinda funny though…

Read these,,, i really don’t like that i have to post them here… but i wanna share my laughs with you intelligent people….

link 1

link 2

My God,,, even when everyday our television is full of “their” films and dramas….

Actually I don’t want to be angered about this… I think it’s a fool’s job to care about these matters about “war between religions”…. But sometimes, I can’t bear hearing something like these…

That’s not for them only, some of “my own people” have said stupid things also about other religions….

this for example

It makes me laughs in despair,,,, why we have to debate in hatred about religions….

God, why do You had to give religions to us….. It makes more and more war,, God……

….The paradox of life itself….